4 years already?

Well June 30th would have been our 4 year anniversary.

My friends were amazing and lifted my spirits all day long and kept me busy!

People ask "Do you feel like you wasted the past 4 years of your life?"

No, I don't.

I have a beautiful son who means the world to me and I learned so much in the good and bad experiences that came with that marriage.

I have started a new journey and looked at things differently.

Now, instead of it being "well, it would have been 4 years" I'm saying "Wow, it's been 4 years since I got to see these wonderful friends of mine, since I got to focus on me, since I got to really spend time with my family!"

I'm trying to stay positive every step of the way and yes, we have hit a few bumps along the way the past 2 months but were hanging in there!

If y'all pray I'm asking you keep J and I in your prayers for a whole week!

J goes to stay with his Daddy and his family till Monday and at first it was a good thing. I want him to know his daddy and to see him as much as possible seeing were in different states. But unfortunately this is no longer a happy time. His dad has made the decision to no longer follow God, drink, party, curse, see certain females that I won't go into detail about for the sake of their husbands, yeah...you heard me correctly lol. Not a good situation at all.

I'm nervous and disgusted that I have to leave him with him.

Good thing is I will be literally right down the street.

I don't know how J will take to his daddy after 2 months but I'm crossing my fingers things go smoothly.

But one thing I know for sure...his daddy needs my prayers and yours that he gets his life straight soon.

Now on another note: my weight hasn't changed too much because I got sick :/

I did just start on the 30 day jump start book with the biggest loser!!!

Well, kind of haha.

I started the excercises but will start the diet once I return from vacation on Monday.

If you can get this book I suggest it!!!!

I will let you know every week how the process is going!