2012...it's here!!!

Yes, I know....I said I was back on track with posting regularly and then stopped for another 3 months.

It's terrible!!! My New Years resolution is to blog at least once every week this year!!! Keep me accountable people!! Haha.

Here are the things I experienced in 2011 that I'm extremely happy to be saying bye to!

• Being lied to and cheated on by my spouse
• Getting a divorce
• Going through alot of alcohol thinking it would solve all the problems
• Moving away from all my "Military Family"
• Not having a job all year besides Partylite
• Getting a certificate in Medical Billing & Coding
• Going up and down with my weight...more up than down :/
• My Son having anxiety attacks from the divorce

Here are the things I can't wait to experience in 2012!!!

• Been experiencing dating again, feels good, but not so much natural yet
• Staying alcohol free except on occassions in which I won't over indulge lol
• I get to visit my Military Family in February!!!
• I got accepted into Dental Assistant school and start in Jan!!
• I will "hopefully" have my certificate in Medical Billing & Coding within 3 weeks
• Get to experience a Mission Trip to Slovakia, Vienna, and one other place in May!!!!!!!!!
• Plan to stick with my trainer and do 3-4 workouts a week, no strict diet, and lose 15 lbs with a dream goal of 35 lbs
• My Son is set up with a Child Play Therapist and fingers crossed he gets the help needed because I hate seeing him in so much emotional pain.

I'm STOKED for the new year and believe there's many wonderful things coming our way! Hope y'all have alot to look forward to also!!

This is getting bad

I used to post on here at least once a week and now it's only about once a month or every few weeks. My life isn't even too busy, I just can't seem to remember to come on here and post.

I'm going to try to catch all of you up on the happenings of my life the past month.

If you remember I decided to make my blog about my weightloss journey and divorce. Yes, the big D word. Yikes!

I have just realized that alot of people and friends of mine are going through this and if I can at least help one person through this blog I will feel good.

For starters I will talk about month 4 after divorce.

• I haven't cried anymore which is a blessing. It used to be that when a song came up or someone asked where my husband was I would instantly start crying.
• I don't blame the female anymore which is another blessing. I never thought that day would come because I still have anger for the first female he was with 4.5 years ago and we weren't even married yet.
• J is still going through separation anxiety. He is fine until his Daddy goes a few days or weeks without calling and then he will start biting himself and we start from square one all over again. But I will say that he's alot less aggressive so it IS getting better!!! Poor guy :(
• The thought of being alone forever has almost fully left my mind. Alot of people laugh at that but when someone you loved walks out on you and your child you start to have doubts especially since most guys are looking for someone without a kid and someone that hasn't been married.
• I had an ah-ha moment lastnight! Love them! Lol. I was driving and a car passed me with a couple that had their arms around eachother, made me lose my breath for a moment and then I said out loud "Kaycee, God is preparing someone right now for you and your son and it will be more than you can imagine...it's worth the wait!" I love when God speaks to me through myself haha.
• I have had to change the term "My ex husband" into "J's Daddy" so that I always remember to do what's best for our son and so I don't put anger into whatever I'm saying. It actually helps alot and is helping me to learn to be civil with him no matter what he does to me. Be Christ-like.
• I got 2 babysitting jobs!!!! Two families found my info online and contacted me. My first set of income in 3 years besides Partylite!! I pick one child up from school and drop him off at home, and the other is an 8 month old that I just watch a few days a week! I love being around an infant again! Small jobs but at least it's a start and better than nothing! When your in a position where you were left with nothing and have to provide for you and your son, anything helps and I'm proud of myself.

Now on to the weightloss

Booooo!!! Hahaha it's been a struggle! I was on the biggest loser diet but then I went to dfw for a week and gained 4 lbs while there. That's terrible!!!! So I got back and jumped on the veggie/meat diet and lose quickly. I lost 3 lbs so far and have also decided to start the C25K program! Have any of you started that and if so what have your results been?!? I want to lose weight and also end up loving running! Today will be my 2nd day of starting! Once I lose a good amount I will jump back on the Biggest Loser diet to continue eating healthy meals. Now that I know I won't be having any more kids for awhile this is my time to be getting into shape and looking good for my future prince charming ;)

4 years already?

Well June 30th would have been our 4 year anniversary.

My friends were amazing and lifted my spirits all day long and kept me busy!

People ask "Do you feel like you wasted the past 4 years of your life?"

No, I don't.

I have a beautiful son who means the world to me and I learned so much in the good and bad experiences that came with that marriage.

I have started a new journey and looked at things differently.

Now, instead of it being "well, it would have been 4 years" I'm saying "Wow, it's been 4 years since I got to see these wonderful friends of mine, since I got to focus on me, since I got to really spend time with my family!"

I'm trying to stay positive every step of the way and yes, we have hit a few bumps along the way the past 2 months but were hanging in there!

If y'all pray I'm asking you keep J and I in your prayers for a whole week!

J goes to stay with his Daddy and his family till Monday and at first it was a good thing. I want him to know his daddy and to see him as much as possible seeing were in different states. But unfortunately this is no longer a happy time. His dad has made the decision to no longer follow God, drink, party, curse, see certain females that I won't go into detail about for the sake of their husbands, yeah...you heard me correctly lol. Not a good situation at all.

I'm nervous and disgusted that I have to leave him with him.

Good thing is I will be literally right down the street.

I don't know how J will take to his daddy after 2 months but I'm crossing my fingers things go smoothly.

But one thing I know for sure...his daddy needs my prayers and yours that he gets his life straight soon.

Now on another note: my weight hasn't changed too much because I got sick :/

I did just start on the 30 day jump start book with the biggest loser!!!

Well, kind of haha.

I started the excercises but will start the diet once I return from vacation on Monday.

If you can get this book I suggest it!!!!

I will let you know every week how the process is going!

BITTERSWEET I'M BACK!!!!

I have been away from blogging for almost 2 months.

I won't be posting but probably once a week...maybe a little more often.

As you can tell my blog pictures are different!?

Well, I took 2 months off because I just went through a divorce.

Don't want to get into too much detail just know that this was the best decision because he didn't want responsibility of us anymore.

So J and I have moved to TEXAS :) and I'm trying my best to make it as a single mom in this couples world.

My blog in the past was about my weightloss and surviving deployments.

Now it will be more of the emotions and situations single mom's go through and me getting back on track with my weightloss. Yes, you heard it...this is the FIRST time I have EVER gained weight due to stress. Normally I lose it...but nope not this time. I gained every bit back :/

I will also have my lovely PL giveaway's every once in awhile and if you remember correctly I said I would have one once I started blogging again.

Soooo....here it is!!

All you have to do is be a follower of mine...not private.

And for an extra entry* leave some advice for either -being a single mom -returning to the civilian world -ideas on how to make my blog better!

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