This is getting bad

I used to post on here at least once a week and now it's only about once a month or every few weeks. My life isn't even too busy, I just can't seem to remember to come on here and post.

I'm going to try to catch all of you up on the happenings of my life the past month.

If you remember I decided to make my blog about my weightloss journey and divorce. Yes, the big D word. Yikes!

I have just realized that alot of people and friends of mine are going through this and if I can at least help one person through this blog I will feel good.

For starters I will talk about month 4 after divorce.

• I haven't cried anymore which is a blessing. It used to be that when a song came up or someone asked where my husband was I would instantly start crying.
• I don't blame the female anymore which is another blessing. I never thought that day would come because I still have anger for the first female he was with 4.5 years ago and we weren't even married yet.
• J is still going through separation anxiety. He is fine until his Daddy goes a few days or weeks without calling and then he will start biting himself and we start from square one all over again. But I will say that he's alot less aggressive so it IS getting better!!! Poor guy :(
• The thought of being alone forever has almost fully left my mind. Alot of people laugh at that but when someone you loved walks out on you and your child you start to have doubts especially since most guys are looking for someone without a kid and someone that hasn't been married.
• I had an ah-ha moment lastnight! Love them! Lol. I was driving and a car passed me with a couple that had their arms around eachother, made me lose my breath for a moment and then I said out loud "Kaycee, God is preparing someone right now for you and your son and it will be more than you can imagine...it's worth the wait!" I love when God speaks to me through myself haha.
• I have had to change the term "My ex husband" into "J's Daddy" so that I always remember to do what's best for our son and so I don't put anger into whatever I'm saying. It actually helps alot and is helping me to learn to be civil with him no matter what he does to me. Be Christ-like.
• I got 2 babysitting jobs!!!! Two families found my info online and contacted me. My first set of income in 3 years besides Partylite!! I pick one child up from school and drop him off at home, and the other is an 8 month old that I just watch a few days a week! I love being around an infant again! Small jobs but at least it's a start and better than nothing! When your in a position where you were left with nothing and have to provide for you and your son, anything helps and I'm proud of myself.

Now on to the weightloss

Booooo!!! Hahaha it's been a struggle! I was on the biggest loser diet but then I went to dfw for a week and gained 4 lbs while there. That's terrible!!!! So I got back and jumped on the veggie/meat diet and lose quickly. I lost 3 lbs so far and have also decided to start the C25K program! Have any of you started that and if so what have your results been?!? I want to lose weight and also end up loving running! Today will be my 2nd day of starting! Once I lose a good amount I will jump back on the Biggest Loser diet to continue eating healthy meals. Now that I know I won't be having any more kids for awhile this is my time to be getting into shape and looking good for my future prince charming ;)

To BC or not to BC...that is the question

Alright, my sister-n-law has been reminding me that I'm slacking on posting!

I have been trying to catch up on my school work, lose weight for the wedding coming up, and enjoying alone time with my son, so I have put blogging on the back burner :/

I needed to post today but honestly am blank on what to say hahaha

Sooo the ONLY thing that popped in my mind that I have been trying to figure out recently is whether or not to get on BC.

I have been off for almost a year. When I got off I had 2 to 3 cycles a month, and then about 5 months later it switched to no cycle for 4 months but has been right on track the past 2!

I'm no longer married, not in a relationship, and don't need any more kids running around until I am married again. Today I had one of the WORST cramps ever, and I have never had bad cramps. My acne has also been really wild since then too.

I used to be on the depo shot until it gave me migraines daily for months, then switched to the pill which I tended to forget every once in awhile.

Do I get on it to help with cramps and acne and a steady cycle, or just not even attempt it?!?

Opinions please, and maybe advice on what kinds you prefer?!

Greek....yuck!

So in one of the recipes for a smoothie it called for regular fat-free Greek yogurt.

The book tells you to ALWAYS try everything at least once.

So I have, and let me tell you...that yogurt is nasty!!!!

It absolutely ruined the smoothie.

Maybe it's because I like sweet things...not tart. And, yogurt has always been a struggle of mine to enjoy unless it's flavored or whipped.

Any suggestions on a healthy yogurt I could substitute it with?

Another thing I tried that I have always hated was mushrooms.

I was to make Portobello Pizza's.

Instead of crust...you use the mushroom.

I will admit, I liked 3 out of the 4 I ate.

1 of them just tasted like pure mushroom...ew!

Have you ever heard of Jicama?

Let me tell you....deeelicious snack!

You slice it up and can eat it raw or cook them.

You can replace it for carrotts and celery or even eat it with them.

So...now that I have shared my interesting meals this week, I guess it's time to share how the process is going huh?

I lost another 2 lbs in a week!!! The book has you walk 20 minutes the first day and then adds 2 more minutes every day after. Once you done it walks you through stretches the first 8-10 days then adds in weights later. Just from the stretches I'm sore!! The meals are easy to stick with because it changes constantly leaving you curious to how things taste! Also, the workouts/stretches change daily too so your not bored with the same thing everyday.

I have 4 weeks until I put on the bridesmaid dress that is being made for me. I hope to have lost at least 7 more pounds by then! Let's see if I can reach that goal!



4 years already?

Well June 30th would have been our 4 year anniversary.

My friends were amazing and lifted my spirits all day long and kept me busy!

People ask "Do you feel like you wasted the past 4 years of your life?"

No, I don't.

I have a beautiful son who means the world to me and I learned so much in the good and bad experiences that came with that marriage.

I have started a new journey and looked at things differently.

Now, instead of it being "well, it would have been 4 years" I'm saying "Wow, it's been 4 years since I got to see these wonderful friends of mine, since I got to focus on me, since I got to really spend time with my family!"

I'm trying to stay positive every step of the way and yes, we have hit a few bumps along the way the past 2 months but were hanging in there!

If y'all pray I'm asking you keep J and I in your prayers for a whole week!

J goes to stay with his Daddy and his family till Monday and at first it was a good thing. I want him to know his daddy and to see him as much as possible seeing were in different states. But unfortunately this is no longer a happy time. His dad has made the decision to no longer follow God, drink, party, curse, see certain females that I won't go into detail about for the sake of their husbands, yeah...you heard me correctly lol. Not a good situation at all.

I'm nervous and disgusted that I have to leave him with him.

Good thing is I will be literally right down the street.

I don't know how J will take to his daddy after 2 months but I'm crossing my fingers things go smoothly.

But one thing I know for sure...his daddy needs my prayers and yours that he gets his life straight soon.

Now on another note: my weight hasn't changed too much because I got sick :/

I did just start on the 30 day jump start book with the biggest loser!!!

Well, kind of haha.

I started the excercises but will start the diet once I return from vacation on Monday.

If you can get this book I suggest it!!!!

I will let you know every week how the process is going!

Frustrated! Help!!

Okay so I have tried to comment on so many of your lovely blogs and it's stressing me out!!!

I write my comment then it says "select account" so I click google account then enter. It goes to the blogger login page and has me login.

It then shows "anonymous wrote: blah blah blah my comment blah blah" then asks me to enter in the security code. So I do...then it goes back to the blogger sign in page. I login AGAIN and it goes back to the comment asking for another security code....

WHY?!?

Lol is anyone else having this happen??

I just want to comment!!!!

Lol.

Winner and weigh-in!

I was supposed to post this lastnight but got busy.

Sorry!!!

The winner of those fun votive holders is...

Melissa from This Crazy Life!

Congrats!!

Send me your address asap so I can get it to you!!

So I weighed in and have lost 4.6 lbs in a week! That is great considering the ONLY thing I have changed....is no stress this week!

I have picked up running everyday! The street I live in goes in a perfect square that's exactly a mile! So I'm going to see how this helps in my journey! I'm excited!

I tend to sleep in till my son wakes up which ends up being till 10...so from now on I'm waking up at 8 and going running! Gonna start my day early and hope it pays off!

When you really want something you can achieve it!



Words with friends failure!!

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So just a little funny story...

My aunt and sister introduced me to words w/ friends and they were constantly playing when I was down visiting. My phone won't allow that app so I just ignored it but was still a little curious.

I got on my ipod and found it and started playing!!

I was starring at the screen for about 10 minutes (no joke) trying to find the first word to enter.

fyi...I haven't played scrabble in about 8 years lol.

I couldn't figure out anything!!!!

How do people play this? Am I really just that dumb?

How do you put TL, DW, DL, TW in your words?!?!?!?!?

OHHH!!!! Because you DON'T!!!

Hahahaha yes...I thought you had to put a letter before and after those blocks.

Example: Ket"TL"e

Good thing I clicked on help and found out that those blocks are to help you win and not lose!