My Journey To Being Happy Again

Friday, May 25, 2012

Shutting Down...

Okay friends, I will be shutting down my Partylite website June 1st.
So NOW is the time to get your orders in and shop your heart out while we have holiday SPECIALS going on right now!!!!
We have summer specials, an online outlet, and bundle packages that are GREAT deals!!
Hurry and check it out HERE! 
Only 6 days left!!!!

Sunday, March 18, 2012


If you missed my last post here is the link to it, there is a giveaway at the end and NOONE has entered, so now is your lucky chance!!!

In the meantime, I don't want to post what I promised to until there has been a winner chosen for that so here's a sneak peek of our photoshoot from our trip in MO!

If your ever in the Kansas City/ Missouri area I definitely suggest AD Photography! She has now done 2 photoshoots for us and I'm happy every time! She will work with you on prices too if needed. Great personality and she knows what she doing! Did I mention she will do hair and makeup also if wanted?!? Yep! She's pretty amazing!

Monday, March 12, 2012

Memories (comment and you may win a giveaway)

Once I return home on Saturday I will have a long post getting all my emotions out.
Until then, this is what I'm experiencing this week while back in Missouri.
Memories, memories, memories...
~J was born here
~My first home was here, and is now destroyed and built over
~Our second brand new home is directly across the street from where I'm staying, so when I go anywhere or look out the window it instantly hits me that "I could still be there and living next to my best friend"
~All the relationships I had here have been picked up right where they left off
~Had to ride in the car with my ex husband and have lunch which had ALOT of emotions in which I'll explain in the post on Saturday.
~Being on base makes me miss being a military spouse in SO many ways.
~Driving past tons of locations bring up little memories with people and events that happened the past 5 years.
It's like going home after being gone for a very long time, it's exciting, emotional, sad, but then confusing because I don't know if I'll ever have the chance to come back to all of this. Friends are leaving this base left and right from deployments, orders, or their time being done in the military. I love this place, but it's also where I got hurt the worst. It's been a very trying week and I'm just ready to finish seeing all my friends and family and get home, but then I know I'll be crying the whole drive back because I miss everyone haha.
For those of you that have been stationed somewhere different or maybe been divorced, were you as lucky as I was with keeping most of your friendships? Did you ever get to visit again or your friends visit you?
I was at a very low point when leaving here and am now happy with my life, not angry at the people who hurt me, and ready to move on and find someone who love my son and I (if you know of anyone let me know ;)) lol but everyone here has noticed that and it shows me alot about how God has worked in my life to not be bitter. It's been 10 months, I never expected to be over this, but am so glad that I am. I'm trying my best to take all these memories in and turn them positive, just need to keep it going for 5 more days!

Comment and you can get a chance to win this:
Apple Cake Mix from the TSG food line with Partylite!
Soooo delicious!

Monday, February 27, 2012


Took 8 months but it's finally completed and can now go on my resume!

Monday, February 13, 2012

tomorrow, tomorrow, I LOVE you tomorrow!!!


Can't believe I have been in this world for 23 years. Makes me realize how much time I've wasted. Had some amazing times, great experiences, had a child, been married, moved to another state for the military, been divorced, terrible experiences, all in 23 years. That's crazy to me! But it was all for a reason. And I am who I am now because of it!
One thing I'm extremely grateful for is family this year. I don't think I would be as strong as I have been if it wasn't for them. I would be jumping house to house in MO and I would be lonely, depressed, angry, and giving up in every way. Yes, my family has been able to annoy me with not understanding me at times and not being patient. But they also haven't been in my shoes. Some have been divorced, but not with a child. Some have experienced living back with the parents, but not after living on your own for 4 years then coming back and having to adjust to someone else's home and add a child to the mix. Lol there's alot of things I've experienced the last year that most of them haven't...but as much as they need to understand that they don't "know" what I am going through, I have been able to understand that I need patience to allow them to irritate me because they don't fully know. They "bother" me because they love me. Every bit of encouragement I get from them brings me to tears now because I hadn't heard much of it until I started this adventure on having to start my journey over. I couldn't do this without them. So this year...year my chance to love on my family and show them how much I appreciate them. Not only that but I'm going to start my career this year and give my son what he deserves and that's a home to call our own!!
So, here's to a bigger, brighter year and becoming 23!!

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

Ahhhh relief!

I finally completed my online Medical Billing & Coding course!!
I will recieve my completion certificate by this weekend hopefully!
I have to say, I dreaded doing work the last 5 months of it because it got boring, hard, confusing, and my mentor didn't call me ONCE to give support or help when I needed it. I won't suggest that school for any military wife. But I'm very thankful I have something I finished and can make my resume pretty lol.
Now the stress is gone and I can focus on Dental Asst school! I'm in week 3 and STILL loving it!! Got to work in a few classmates mouths this week which was interesting. And of course, I offered to take my exam first which led to me being the test dummy patient for all the other students to take their test with. We were doing Fluoride treatments but with whipped cream. So I'm pretty sure I ended up with alot of cavities that day haha. I only have 6 more days until I've completed my first Mod...can you believe that?!? It went by SO quickly and I will be a dental junior and no longer a dental baby! Woohoo!!

Now, the dreaded word....anxiety

J has been decent this past week with his attacks. Well, ALOT better than it was 2 weeks ago. The Therapist said she is at a loss as to what to do because he's too young for her to communicate with. She is looking into finding a Play Therapist and I'm crossing my fingers that it works. Because if not, were starting from point A again. I have had alot more patience with it and so has he. We made a huge step in him actually going to the naughty chair twice in one day and not even complaining!! Yes, I know, that has to do with his normal 2 year old tantrums...but it's a way of getting him to calm down and notice he's in the wrong which can also help with his anxiety attacks.
So the lovely holiday is coming up. Valentine's Day! Some hate it, some can't wait because they have a hot date! Me on the other hand, it's an iffy day lol. Why? Because it happens to be the day my Mother gave birth to me! Exciting because it's my Birthday, but unless I have a's awkward because most everyone else is celebrating with their loved ones. My ex husband never made it too special anyways so I'm not depressed to be alone this year. BUT this year I have awesome friends who are wanting to spend the weekend with me and Valentine's Day to celebrate! Definitely looking forward to it! I'll be 23....yikes!! That age makes me cringe because it sounds so old haha.

Monday, January 23, 2012

I'm Lovin' It!

I have officially completed a full week of Dental Asst School and I absolutely LOVE it!
We had an exam over Math Fundamentals on the 2nd day and I made a 96!
Tomorrow we have a quiz over Microbiology and I plan on making a solid 100 for that lol.
I used to hate note taking and preparing for test but I'm actually enjoying it!
I will say, it's different having to wake up at 6 in the morning and only going to school through Thursday but I'm sure I will get used to it soon!
Besides school I have had an extremely emotional week.
J's separation anxiety has been REALLY bad this week and it's very draining. I have spent alot of time crying, praying, and trying to make him happy.
He has seen a therapist and goes back again this Friday. I'm hoping to get him into a play therapy group and something that's more often than every 2 weeks because it's not getting better.
I never thought my Son would experience such a painful, sad problem like this anxiety.
I hurt for him. I blame myself sometimes for not getting out of the marriage before he could understand what was happening. I also realize though that God has better plans for us and this is only temporary. He won't give me more than I can handle. So for now I have to take a deep breath, thank him for what he's done for us so far, show my son unconditional love through the pain, and have patience for the calming of the storm!