My Journey To Being Happy Again

Friday, September 30, 2011

This is getting bad

I used to post on here at least once a week and now it's only about once a month or every few weeks. My life isn't even too busy, I just can't seem to remember to come on here and post.
I'm going to try to catch all of you up on the happenings of my life the past month.
If you remember I decided to make my blog about my weightloss journey and divorce. Yes, the big D word. Yikes!
I have just realized that alot of people and friends of mine are going through this and if I can at least help one person through this blog I will feel good.

For starters I will talk about month 4 after divorce.
  • I haven't cried anymore which is a blessing. It used to be that when a song came up or someone asked where my husband was I would instantly start crying.
  • I don't blame the female anymore which is another blessing. I never thought that day would come because I still have anger for the first female he was with 4.5 years ago and we weren't even married yet.
  • J is still going through separation anxiety. He is fine until his Daddy goes a few days or weeks without calling and then he will start biting himself and we start from square one all over again. But I will say that he's alot less aggressive so it IS getting better!!! Poor guy :(
  • The thought of being alone forever has almost fully left my mind. Alot of people laugh at that but when someone you loved walks out on you and your child you start to have doubts especially since most guys are looking for someone without a kid and someone that hasn't been married.
  • I had an ah-ha moment lastnight! Love them! Lol. I was driving and a car passed me with a couple that had their arms around eachother, made me lose my breath for a moment and then I said out loud "Kaycee, God is preparing someone right now for you and your son and it will be more than you can's worth the wait!" I love when God speaks to me through myself haha.
  • I have had to change the term "My ex husband" into "J's Daddy" so that I always remember to do what's best for our son and so I don't put anger into whatever I'm saying. It actually helps alot and is helping me to learn to be civil with him no matter what he does to me. Be Christ-like.
  • I got 2 babysitting jobs!!!! Two families found my info online and contacted me. My first set of income in 3 years besides Partylite!! I pick one child up from school and drop him off at home, and the other is an 8 month old that I just watch a few days a week! I love being around an infant again! Small jobs but at least it's a start and better than nothing! When your in a position where you were left with nothing and have to provide for you and your son, anything helps and I'm proud of myself.
Now on to the weightloss

Booooo!!! Hahaha it's been a struggle! I was on the biggest loser diet but then I went to dfw for a week and gained 4 lbs while there. That's terrible!!!! So I got back and jumped on the veggie/meat diet and lose quickly. I lost 3 lbs so far and have also decided to start the C25K program! Have any of you started that and if so what have your results been?!? I want to lose weight and also end up loving running! Today will be my 2nd day of starting! Once I lose a good amount I will jump back on the Biggest Loser diet to continue eating healthy meals. Now that I know I won't be having any more kids for awhile this is my time to be getting into shape and looking good for my future prince charming ;)

Monday, August 22, 2011

To BC or not to BC...that is the question

Alright, my sister-n-law has been reminding me that I'm slacking on posting!
I have been trying to catch up on my school work, lose weight for the wedding coming up, and enjoying alone time with my son, so I have put blogging on the back burner :/
I needed to post today but honestly am blank on what to say hahaha
Sooo the ONLY thing that popped in my mind that I have been trying to figure out recently is whether or not to get on BC.
I have been off for almost a year. When I got off I had 2 to 3 cycles a month, and then about 5 months later it switched to no cycle for 4 months but has been right on track the past 2!
I'm no longer married, not in a relationship, and don't need any more kids running around until I am married again. Today I had one of the WORST cramps ever, and I have never had bad cramps. My acne has also been really wild since then too.
I used to be on the depo shot until it gave me migraines daily for months, then switched to the pill which I tended to forget every once in awhile.
Do I get on it to help with cramps and acne and a steady cycle, or just not even attempt it?!?
Opinions please, and maybe advice on what kinds you prefer?!

Wednesday, August 10, 2011


So in one of the recipes for a smoothie it called for regular fat-free Greek yogurt.
The book tells you to ALWAYS try everything at least once.
So I have, and let me tell you...that yogurt is nasty!!!!
It absolutely ruined the smoothie.
Maybe it's because I like sweet things...not tart. And, yogurt has always been a struggle of mine to enjoy unless it's flavored or whipped.
Any suggestions on a healthy yogurt I could substitute it with?
Another thing I tried that I have always hated was mushrooms.
I was to make Portobello Pizza's.
Instead of use the mushroom.
I will admit, I liked 3 out of the 4 I ate.
1 of them just tasted like pure mushroom...ew!
Have you ever heard of Jicama?
Let me tell you....deeelicious snack!
You slice it up and can eat it raw or cook them.
You can replace it for carrotts and celery or even eat it with them. that I have shared my interesting meals this week, I guess it's time to share how the process is going huh?

I lost another 2 lbs in a week!!! The book has you walk 20 minutes the first day and then adds 2 more minutes every day after. Once you done it walks you through stretches the first 8-10 days then adds in weights later. Just from the stretches I'm sore!! The meals are easy to stick with because it changes constantly leaving you curious to how things taste! Also, the workouts/stretches change daily too so your not bored with the same thing everyday.
I have 4 weeks until I put on the bridesmaid dress that is being made for me. I hope to have lost at least 7 more pounds by then! Let's see if I can reach that goal!

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

4 years already?

Well June 30th would have been our 4 year anniversary.
My friends were amazing and lifted my spirits all day long and kept me busy!
People ask "Do you feel like you wasted the past 4 years of your life?"
No, I don't.
I have a beautiful son who means the world to me and I learned so much in the good and bad experiences that came with that marriage.
I have started a new journey and looked at things differently.
Now, instead of it being "well, it would have been 4 years" I'm saying "Wow, it's been 4 years since I got to see these wonderful friends of mine, since I got to focus on me, since I got to really spend time with my family!"
I'm trying to stay positive every step of the way and yes, we have hit a few bumps along the way the past 2 months but were hanging in there!
If y'all pray I'm asking you keep J and I in your prayers for a whole week!
J goes to stay with his Daddy and his family till Monday and at first it was a good thing. I want him to know his daddy and to see him as much as possible seeing were in different states. But unfortunately this is no longer a happy time. His dad has made the decision to no longer follow God, drink, party, curse, see certain females that I won't go into detail about for the sake of their husbands, heard me correctly lol. Not a good situation at all.
I'm nervous and disgusted that I have to leave him with him.
Good thing is I will be literally right down the street.
I don't know how J will take to his daddy after 2 months but I'm crossing my fingers things go smoothly.
But one thing I know for sure...his daddy needs my prayers and yours that he gets his life straight soon.

Now on another note: my weight hasn't changed too much because I got sick :/
I did just start on the 30 day jump start book with the biggest loser!!!
Well, kind of haha.
I started the excercises but will start the diet once I return from vacation on Monday.
If you can get this book I suggest it!!!!
I will let you know every week how the process is going!

Friday, July 8, 2011

Frustrated! Help!!

Okay so I have tried to comment on so many of your lovely blogs and it's stressing me out!!!
I write my comment then it says "select account" so I click google account then enter. It goes to the blogger login page and has me login.
It then shows "anonymous wrote: blah blah blah my comment blah blah" then asks me to enter in the security code. So I do...then it goes back to the blogger sign in page. I login AGAIN and it goes back to the comment asking for another security code....
Lol is anyone else having this happen??
I just want to comment!!!!

Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Winner and weigh-in!

I was supposed to post this lastnight but got busy.
The winner of those fun votive holders is...

Melissa from This Crazy Life!
Send me your address asap so I can get it to you!!

So I weighed in and have lost 4.6 lbs in a week! That is great considering the ONLY thing I have no stress this week!
I have picked up running everyday! The street I live in goes in a perfect square that's exactly a mile! So I'm going to see how this helps in my journey! I'm excited!
I tend to sleep in till my son wakes up which ends up being till from now on I'm waking up at 8 and going running! Gonna start my day early and hope it pays off!
When you really want something you can achieve it!

Monday, June 27, 2011

Words with friends failure!!

Be sure to enter into my GIVEAWAY if you haven't already!!

So just a little funny story...
My aunt and sister introduced me to words w/ friends and they were constantly playing when I was down visiting. My phone won't allow that app so I just ignored it but was still a little curious.
I got on my ipod and found it and started playing!!
I was starring at the screen for about 10 minutes (no joke) trying to find the first word to enter.
fyi...I haven't played scrabble in about 8 years lol.
I couldn't figure out anything!!!!
How do people play this? Am I really just that dumb?
How do you put TL, DW, DL, TW in your words?!?!?!?!?
OHHH!!!! Because you DON'T!!!
Hahahaha yes...I thought you had to put a letter before and after those blocks.
Example: Ket"TL"e
Good thing I clicked on help and found out that those blocks are to help you win and not lose!

Friday, June 24, 2011


I have been away from blogging for almost 2 months.
I won't be posting but probably once a week...maybe a little more often.
As you can tell my blog pictures are different!?
Well, I took 2 months off because I just went through a divorce.
Don't want to get into too much detail just know that this was the best decision because he didn't want responsibility of us anymore.
So J and I have moved to TEXAS :) and I'm trying my best to make it as a single mom in this couples world.
My blog in the past was about my weightloss and surviving deployments.
Now it will be more of the emotions and situations single mom's go through and me getting back on track with my weightloss. Yes, you heard it...this is the FIRST time I have EVER gained weight due to stress. Normally I lose it...but nope not this time. I gained every bit back :/
I will also have my lovely PL giveaway's every once in awhile and if you remember correctly I said I would have one once I started blogging again. it is!!
All you have to do is be a follower of mine...not private.
And for an extra entry* leave some advice for either -being a single mom -returning to the civilian world -ideas on how to make my blog better!
Separate comment for each entry!

Ikat Votive Holder Pair!

Will randomly choose a winner on Tuesday night the 28th!

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

hello goodbye

Just wanted to drop in considering my last post was quite awhile ago.
Things have been extremely crazy here and will continue to be that way for the next month.
So I have decided to stay off the blog until things calm down and then I will catch everyone up.
And what better way to come back than to have a giveaway!?
Yep! That's be expecting a big one from me in about a month!
Who knows, I may end up with something to say before then haha.
Just keep me in your prayers!!

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Look if ya wanna laugh a little.

So this past weekend 2 friends of mine came over.
Our nights have consisted of jus hanging out in the backyard by the fire and playing games.
So nothing too exciting yet somehow we have the BEST nights ever.
The things that entertain you when you live in the middle of no where hahaha.
So here are a few of our crazy pictures.

Cahhrrrweeee! (aka Carrie)

The ONLY pic that wasn't blurred out that night haha. My friends Brian and Javi!
Look at my red hair!! Lovin it still!
My pregnant friend Jen....we already decided..she is going to share her baby with me lol.
Without realizing it...I turned this pic into an oreo ad hahaha.
Can you take a guess??
Hahaha this was taken with perfect timing!
I actually just popping her back, nothing more lol.

One of my favorites of the night lol. But I didn't get the memo to not smile haha.
Funny part....she didn't pose for this!
And we were actually talking...didn't mean to make those faces at all but made for a PERFECT picture lol.

 And that's all. Hope at least one made you smile lol.

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Alot of...stuff

Hello everyone!!
So I am giving away an item on a friend's blog for her blogaverssary!!!
You can head on over HERE and enter to win the item!!
She is a great blogger!

Now, I have been going through alot the past 3 weeks.
I have yet to just sit down and cry about it all, but I know it's coming really soon.
I will not get personal about what's going on but your prayers are very much welcomed.
God is going to be teaching me alot the next few months and I'm going to have to lean on him and trust him every step of the way.
My friends and family have been amazing through this, and it's bringing us all closer. Weird how bad situations can do that hahaha. But oh well, I will take it!
On top of all of week I will be looking for a J.O.B.....yuppp I said it.
That nasty J word lol. Scares me, but I'm slightly excited about making my own money instead of relying on the husband for the income.

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Winner announced!!!

The big day has come!!
I let choose the winner for me, but like always, it's not wanting to work with me and let me post the picture of who won on here. So you just have to trust me!

The winner recieves all these lovely items!

And the winner is.......

 Congratulations!!! Let me know your address so I can get them shipped right away!
Makes me excited that someone different wins each giveaway I have!! These are lovely products!!

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

New Hair!!

Tonight is the last night to enter the lovely GIVEAWAY I have going for my 100th post!!!
I will be choosing a winner at random tomorrow night!

Soo, I chose to be bold and make a change!!
I now have RED hair!!
It's brighter in person...but I love it! Still get shocked when I look in the mirror but I will get used to it! It's been 9 years since I touched my hair with anything besides scissors.
Whatcha think?!?!

Sunday, March 27, 2011


If you haven't gone an entered in for my big giveaway do so now!!
It will end on Wednesday!!

I did my weigh in last Friday and if you didn't notice...I'm almost 10 lbs down from when I started back over again last month!!!! That is a HUGE accomplishment!!
I can jump on the elliptical and not count down every minute now, and the 3-3minute rounds of boxing is no longer kicking my butt....I'm pumped and when I'm done I just want to keep going!
My friends have been a huge help in this and they encourage me every time I get down about things.
But most of all, I believe in myself and push harder everytime I see something is becoming easy.
I went and bought a new pair of jeans finally!! I have lost alot of weight in the legs so all my jeans are so baggy. Went down 2 sizes!!!! And I bought a workout shirt in October, in hopes to fit into it one fits now!! When I look in the mirror, I don't see changes...but these things just prove that I am making a difference.
Sooo...10 lbs down, and here's to another 10!!!!!

Thursday, March 24, 2011


This was supposed to be on my 100th post but I wasn't feeling up to it.
So here it is today on 101!
The BIG giveaway!!!!

The lucky winner will recieve ALL 3 of these items!!!

That is a package of delicious Brownies, Cherry Blossom Tealights, and Well Being Spa Hand Therapy/Instant Manicure!!!!!
Remember all of these things I sale of my page so if you don't win or you would like to get these for someone else then you can always shop!!

All you have to do is be a follower of mine!! That's right! Easy as that! Just send a comment stating you follow me, but can't be private.
Winner will be chosen by on Wednesday, the 30th!!!!

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

100th Post..

So, your probably wondering where I have been for awhile?!
Normally on 100th post people do something big, therefore on my NEXT post I will do a giveaway!!! I promise!!!
This post is going to be a little more about just asking for prayers!
We have been going through ALOT this past week and I haven't had time or motivation to write on here.
So if you believe in praying, we would love if you could pray that God would lead us in the right direction with what has come our way.
Thank you!
Hope everyone had a wonderful Spring Break or is having a great one this week!!!

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Wordless wednesday (texas trip)

My friend Jessi and J

Our niece Brookie with J

J and I with Nana (the one who was having neck surgery and came out of it having 2 massive strokes and is now paralyzed...but making progress)

My mother-n-law

Us with the kiddos

My friend Kim!!

And her precious baby Kody!

Wednesday, March 9, 2011


Yes I know, it's been a long time since I posted last..
but it's all for a good excuse!
I have been in Texas since Sunday and just surprised the hubby's family lastnight!!!!
They were soo shocked!
I love it when I actually pull surprise's off!
So for now I'm going to enjoy my week here and then on Monday I will post all the pictures!
Hope everyone had a great weekend!!

Monday, February 28, 2011

just awesome!

Well, it's Monday and I get to post my weigh in today!!!
I am down 5.4lbs in a week!!!!
A WEEK!!!!
Wow, crazy, insane!!!
This excites me alot and shows me what getting in the gym 'almost' daily, drinking lots of water, and no desserts will do!
The best part about friends couldn't go, yet I still pushed myself to go anyways.
And it all paid off!
So this is my last week to kick booty before I go on a week long vacation, so I'm going to hit it hard again and hope for the best!

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Droppin it!

On Monday I went with my friend to the gym and they were closing in 6 minutes so we quickly burned 25 calories and then left haha. We decided to weigh ourselves and I had gained 5 a week.
Then it clicked that I had literally just finished my 'cycle' and I was probably fluctuating.
So today I weighed again after my workout 'which isn't the best time to weigh, but the only time I was by the scale that is correct lol' and I had lost 2.6 lbs since Monday!!!
So I made my starting weight higher on here...and am starting over.
The next 12 days I am hitting it hard in the gym!
Working out 5 days a week in the gym and boxing 3 of those days.
Drinking only water, tea on occasion.
NO sweets except on weekend.
Why am I going hard for 12 days you might ask....because I'm leaving for a week and more than likely won't be able to do my workouts as hard, plus I want to look decent for people I haven't seen in forever! Lol!
Today I was friend has been AMAZING at helping me with boxing.
He really knows how to push me harder everytime and encourage me!
Honestly without my friends, this weight probably wouldn't be coming off.
Can't wait to share my next weigh in on Monday!! Woohoo!!

Tuesday, February 22, 2011


I am really trying to avoid going to a doctor...
but it's been 4 days now and getting worse.
Normally going to the clinic is a no brainer since it's free, but last time I went for back pain they said it was all in my head and after 3 years of just being put in physical therapy and told I needed to just lose weight....another hospital found out I had mutiple gallstones and need my gallbladder removed immediately.
Sooooo being back at the clinic and needing to go in for back pain...
isn't something I'm looking forward to.
Try standing up and feeling like you can't straighten your back because the middle of your spin/muscles/mid back is killing you. That's my pain right now for the past 4 days. Every morning I wake up it's worse. This is worse than the pain with the gallbladder.
Makes me nervous.
I tried adjusting it, massage, aleve, stretching, and nothing has made it better.
So I guess tomorrow I will be making a very dreaded phonecall.
Anyone have an idea of what it could be?

Saturday, February 19, 2011

Stylish redo!!!

I recieved an unexpected Blog Award yesterday!!!! Yay!!
Thank you Misty@monkeysandtutus If you don't follow her already you should!! She is a Mom of 2 and a Military Spouse! Since I'm planning on having baby #2 sometime this year her blog prepares me for what I'm in for haha!

Here is how it works:

1. Say thanks and link up to the person who gave you the award.
2. Write 7 things about you
3. Give award to 8 other lovely bloggers!

Okay this is the second time I have posted this and something keeps going wrong because it deletes the whole thing once posted.
So I'm going to keep this short...and not put any links to your pages, sorry ladies.

1. I love being a military wife, it has made me who I am today and very appreciative for what I have!
2. I am terrified of spiders!! Terrified!!!!
3. I LOVE Zebra's anything and everything zebra print! I already have shoes, earings, necklace, shirt, blanket, and bath robe!
4. I love going on vacations, even if it's only 3 hours away but were staying in a hotel!! Anyone want a visitor?!?! Lol
5. I'm allergic to cold, no joke I get a rash then swell up.
6. I'm addicted to Chocolate and Peanut Butter, sad but true. And worst part is my hubby is allergic to Peanuts!!!
7. Umm, I forgot the other one I posted soooo, I like to wear sweats and t-shirts when at the house. Jeans and t-shirt any other time, Dressing up only happens for church or when going to a nice restaurant.

I'm giving this award too:
Let's see If I can remember everyone's names that I had posted..
Adrienne@ Our Journey Of Love
Laura@ Life Happens
Melissa@ Try Try Again
Jessica@ Learning As We Go
Katie@ Third Time's A Charm
Amber@ Goodnight moon
Ginger@ The Neff Family
Jody@ Miss Fancy Pants

Friday, February 18, 2011


Okay......I had a whole entire post about the blog reward I just recieved and I was giving it out to other blogs when it all got deleted once I was finished....
Sooooooo I have no more time today but I will post it tonight or tomorrow.
Just be sure to check it if I sent you a comment earlier!!!

Thursday, February 17, 2011

Birthday Weekend!

Before I post these pictures I will just warn you, my camera is MIA and so all of these were taken off my phone causing the lighting to be awful and our faces to look very...oily lol.

I have to say, this year my Birthday weekend was excellent!!
Normally there is always someone there to ruin it, or something bad happens. But this year went perfect!
Well, almost.
On Saturday we decided to go to the Cheesecake Factory to eat dinner and then head over to the Crown Center for some outdoor Ice Skating!!!
As the plan sounded great...we got there and because they don't take reservations it ended up being a 3 hour wait until we got seated. We walked around the Plaza for other restaurants but they all had the same wait time. So, we just hung out on the stairs inside the CF...seriously the place was packed, people were standing/sitting everywhere. Finally, the bartender said there were open seats at the bar to go sit and wait. So we did...and oh my, we drank and ordered appetizers! GREAT idea! It took the edge off and noone cared about waiting that long anymore.

Cheesy, I know lol!
Once we were seated the food came fast and was deeeelicious might I add, and then Rees'es Cheesecake was AMAZING!! They even sang to me and put a pink candle in the whip cream! Didn't think to take a picture until it was half eaten lol.
By the time we were done eating the Ice Skating rink was closed so we planned to go cosmic bowling.
We had a blast and all lost to my Hubby on both games lol.

This is what you get when one is going on about 8 drinks, and the other is ur tipsy husband who hates pictures. They kept saying "Our Space" and pushing my hand away when I touched the back of MY SEAT. Hahaha. Crazy guys but love them both!
Once we got home around 3am I went to pick up J at his babysitter's and this is what I walked into..

Sooo cute! Him and his friend M holding hands.

So on my actual Birthday (V-day) I decided to just relax and spend it with the hubby!
I did go to the gym though and get in a good workout!
He made me my favorite dinner and a cake!!!

Says Happy V/B Day 22
(Valentine's/ Birth) Day for those that don't get it lol.
I thought it was cute! AND it was CHERRY!!!!

I bought J a teddy bear for vday that he pulled off the shelf and hugged all through-out the store lol. And J picked out a gumball heart machine to give to his Daddy! Then I recieved Roses!!!

This year I am in a VERY good place with my friends! God has shown me who is in my life for the right reasons and every single one of them has a different personality and understand me in a different way! I Love all of them and am soo blessed! It took 22 years to get to this point, but I'm thankful I learned this early to let go of the one's that don't care!

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

wordless wednesday

Tomorrow I will post about my birthday. I'm procrastinating lol.

Monday, February 14, 2011

Valentine Winner!!!

Okay, sorry that took me so long to figure out but I did and can now post who the lovely winner is!!!
That lucky person will be recieving this item from Partylite (if you missed the giveaway or want one yourself feel free to go shop and get ya one or buy one for a friend!!)

Andddd the lucky winner is......
drum roll please....

LAURA!!!! You can visit her blog here! It's so funny because I just recently won one of her last giveaway's haha! I have your address so I will be sending it soon!!
Congratulations and Happy Valentine's Day!!!!!

Tomorrow I will post about my Birthday!!

Last Chance HELP!!!

Okay I wanted to announce a winner....but I need HELP first!!!!!!
When I go to to choose a winner. I can't figure out how to show the picture of the generator on here. So if you know PLEASE let me know asap so I can announce a winner and everyone will believe I didn't cheat haha.
Didn't enter the Valentine's Giveaway???
Last chance...enter NOW!!

Sunday, February 13, 2011


Don't forget to enter my Valentine's GIVEAWAY the winner will be announced tomorrow so hurry!!!
Yesterday was a blast at my party!
BUT, I now have a huge headache and am having trouble reading this.
So you will just have to wait to hear about it until tomorrow!!
Or, maybe tuesday since I will be celebrating my birthday/vday with the hubby!

Thursday, February 10, 2011

Valentine's GIVEAWAY!!!

So even though Valentine's is my birthday ;)
I have decided to do a lovely giveaway!
The winner will be picked randomly on Monday!!

Just be a follower of me
and leave a comment about your favorite part of Valentine's Day!!
The winner will get to choose from this one "Passion Fruit" or a Red one "Apple Allure!"
Be sure to leave that in the comment or pink!
That easy!

Want more to give to friends?? SHOP NOW!!

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Set back :(

If you haven't noticed yet, my weightloss ticker just jumped from 6 lbs down to 2 lbs down :(
The snow kept me inside for a whole week and then I have gained more muscle with the workouts I have chosen to do the past 2 weeks.
Although, I did weigh in fully clothed and at 6pm which can cause a higher weight.
So I will double check today when in the gym.
But I'm not going to let it bring me down!
Monday two of my friends that box and fight helped me out and said they would train me!!!
No, not to fight or wrestle anyone lol but to spend 30 minutes hitting mits and doing MAJOR cardio!
I'm soooo excited! My arms are killing me just from the practice so I'm sure today is going to be tough but I believe I'm so excited that I won't give up lol.
This is just another step into losing the baby weight and lookin good ;)

Wordless Wednesday (Throwback 5 yrs ago)