My Journey To Being Happy Again

Monday, January 23, 2012

I'm Lovin' It!

I have officially completed a full week of Dental Asst School and I absolutely LOVE it!
We had an exam over Math Fundamentals on the 2nd day and I made a 96!
Tomorrow we have a quiz over Microbiology and I plan on making a solid 100 for that lol.
I used to hate note taking and preparing for test but I'm actually enjoying it!
I will say, it's different having to wake up at 6 in the morning and only going to school through Thursday but I'm sure I will get used to it soon!
Besides school I have had an extremely emotional week.
J's separation anxiety has been REALLY bad this week and it's very draining. I have spent alot of time crying, praying, and trying to make him happy.
He has seen a therapist and goes back again this Friday. I'm hoping to get him into a play therapy group and something that's more often than every 2 weeks because it's not getting better.
I never thought my Son would experience such a painful, sad problem like this anxiety.
I hurt for him. I blame myself sometimes for not getting out of the marriage before he could understand what was happening. I also realize though that God has better plans for us and this is only temporary. He won't give me more than I can handle. So for now I have to take a deep breath, thank him for what he's done for us so far, show my son unconditional love through the pain, and have patience for the calming of the storm!

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

Orientation and Breaking Free!!!


So So So happy to finally be starting my Dental career!
The class had 15 people in it and about 6 of them were also single Mother's, although none had been through a divorce, we still can relate!
So blessed to be making new friends and being able to start something that will provide for my son and I in the future!

So have any of you heard of Beth Moore?!?
Well, I went a LONG time just ignoring her name and not wanting to listen to her lessons or read her books.
I just had a friend tell me to do the study book "Breaking Free" and let me tell you, it's AMAZING!!! I meet with her about once every week or two and we discuss 1 or 2 days worth since there is SO much to talk about!
It starts off talking about pride and I thought I was prideless lol. Week 2, Day 2, and I'm broken and realizing how many little things I have in my life keeping my captive.
If you are wanting to get rid of pain, stress, habits, influences, or just have a great devotional I definitely suggest this!

Well, that's all for today. Hope everyone has at least smiled once today! If not, come see me and I will change that! Lol

Sunday, January 1, 2012's here!!!

Yes, I know....I said I was back on track with posting regularly and then stopped for another 3 months.
It's terrible!!! My New Years resolution is to blog at least once every week this year!!! Keep me accountable people!! Haha.

Here are the things I experienced in 2011 that I'm extremely happy to be saying bye to!
  • Being lied to and cheated on by my spouse
  • Getting a divorce
  • Going through alot of alcohol thinking it would solve all the problems
  • Moving away from all my "Military Family"
  • Not having a job all year besides Partylite
  • Getting a certificate in Medical Billing & Coding
  • Going up and down with my weight...more up than down :/
  • My Son having anxiety attacks from the divorce
Here are the things I can't wait to experience in 2012!!!

  • Been experiencing dating again, feels good, but not so much natural yet
  • Staying alcohol free except on occassions in which I won't over indulge lol
  • I get to visit my Military Family in February!!!
  • I got accepted into Dental Assistant school and start in Jan!!
  • I will "hopefully" have my certificate in Medical Billing & Coding within 3 weeks
  • Get to experience a Mission Trip to Slovakia, Vienna, and one other place in May!!!!!!!!!
  • Plan to stick with my trainer and do 3-4 workouts a week, no strict diet, and lose 15 lbs with a dream goal of 35 lbs
  • My Son is set up with a Child Play Therapist and fingers crossed he gets the help needed because I hate seeing him in so much emotional pain.
I'm STOKED for the new year and believe there's many wonderful things coming our way! Hope y'all have alot to look forward to also!!