Shutting Down...

Okay friends, I will be shutting down my Partylite website June 1st.

So NOW is the time to get your orders in and shop your heart out while we have holiday SPECIALS going on right now!!!!

We have summer specials, an online outlet, and bundle packages that are GREAT deals!!

Hurry and check it out HERE! 

Only 6 days left!!!!

GIVEAWAY!!!!

If you missed my last post here is the link to it, there is a giveaway at the end and NOONE has entered, so now is your lucky chance!!!

In the meantime, I don't want to post what I promised to until there has been a winner chosen for that so here's a sneak peek of our photoshoot from our trip in MO!

If your ever in the Kansas City/ Missouri area I definitely suggest AD Photography! She has now done 2 photoshoots for us and I'm happy every time! She will work with you on prices too if needed. Great personality and she knows what she doing! Did I mention she will do hair and makeup also if wanted?!? Yep! She's pretty amazing!



Memories (comment and you may win a giveaway)

Once I return home on Saturday I will have a long post getting all my emotions out.

Until then, this is what I'm experiencing this week while back in Missouri.

Memories, memories, memories...

~J was born here

~My first home was here, and is now destroyed and built over

~Our second brand new home is directly across the street from where I'm staying, so when I go anywhere or look out the window it instantly hits me that "I could still be there and living next to my best friend"

~All the relationships I had here have been picked up right where they left off

~Had to ride in the car with my ex husband and have lunch which had ALOT of emotions in which I'll explain in the post on Saturday.

~Being on base makes me miss being a military spouse in SO many ways.

~Driving past tons of locations bring up little memories with people and events that happened the past 5 years.

It's like going home after being gone for a very long time, it's exciting, emotional, sad, but then confusing because I don't know if I'll ever have the chance to come back to all of this. Friends are leaving this base left and right from deployments, orders, or their time being done in the military. I love this place, but it's also where I got hurt the worst. It's been a very trying week and I'm just ready to finish seeing all my friends and family and get home, but then I know I'll be crying the whole drive back because I miss everyone haha.

For those of you that have been stationed somewhere different or maybe been divorced, were you as lucky as I was with keeping most of your friendships? Did you ever get to visit again or your friends visit you?

I was at a very low point when leaving here and am now happy with my life, not angry at the people who hurt me, and ready to move on and find someone who love my son and I (if you know of anyone let me know ;)) lol but everyone here has noticed that and it shows me alot about how God has worked in my life to not be bitter. It's been 10 months, I never expected to be over this, but am so glad that I am. I'm trying my best to take all these memories in and turn them positive, just need to keep it going for 5 more days!

Comment and you can get a chance to win this:

Apple Cake Mix from the TSG food line with Partylite!

Soooo delicious!



Finally!!

I GOT IT!!!

Took 8 months but it's finally completed and can now go on my resume!



tomorrow, tomorrow, I LOVE you tomorrow!!!

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY and HAPPY BIRTHDAY to ME!!!

Can't believe I have been in this world for 23 years. Makes me realize how much time I've wasted. Had some amazing times, great experiences, had a child, been married, moved to another state for the military, been divorced, terrible experiences, all in 23 years. That's crazy to me! But it was all for a reason. And I am who I am now because of it!

One thing I'm extremely grateful for is family this year. I don't think I would be as strong as I have been if it wasn't for them. I would be jumping house to house in MO and I would be lonely, depressed, angry, and giving up in every way. Yes, my family has been able to annoy me with not understanding me at times and not being patient. But they also haven't been in my shoes. Some have been divorced, but not with a child. Some have experienced living back with the parents, but not after living on your own for 4 years then coming back and having to adjust to someone else's home and add a child to the mix. Lol there's alot of things I've experienced the last year that most of them haven't...but as much as they need to understand that they don't "know" what I am going through, I have been able to understand that I need patience to allow them to irritate me because they don't fully know. They "bother" me because they love me. Every bit of encouragement I get from them brings me to tears now because I hadn't heard much of it until I started this adventure on having to start my journey over. I couldn't do this without them. So this year...year 23...is my chance to love on my family and show them how much I appreciate them. Not only that but I'm going to start my career this year and give my son what he deserves and that's a home to call our own!!

So, here's to a bigger, brighter year and becoming 23!!



Ahhhh relief!

I DID IT!!!

I finally completed my online Medical Billing & Coding course!!

I will recieve my completion certificate by this weekend hopefully!

I have to say, I dreaded doing work the last 5 months of it because it got boring, hard, confusing, and my mentor didn't call me ONCE to give support or help when I needed it. I won't suggest that school for any military wife. But I'm very thankful I have something I finished and can make my resume pretty lol.

Now the stress is gone and I can focus on Dental Asst school! I'm in week 3 and STILL loving it!! Got to work in a few classmates mouths this week which was interesting. And of course, I offered to take my exam first which led to me being the test dummy patient for all the other students to take their test with. We were doing Fluoride treatments but with whipped cream. So I'm pretty sure I ended up with alot of cavities that day haha. I only have 6 more days until I've completed my first Mod...can you believe that?!? It went by SO quickly and I will be a dental junior and no longer a dental baby! Woohoo!!

Now, the dreaded word....anxiety

J has been decent this past week with his attacks. Well, ALOT better than it was 2 weeks ago. The Therapist said she is at a loss as to what to do because he's too young for her to communicate with. She is looking into finding a Play Therapist and I'm crossing my fingers that it works. Because if not, were starting from point A again. I have had alot more patience with it and so has he. We made a huge step in him actually going to the naughty chair twice in one day and not even complaining!! Yes, I know, that has to do with his normal 2 year old tantrums...but it's a way of getting him to calm down and notice he's in the wrong which can also help with his anxiety attacks.

So the lovely holiday is coming up. Valentine's Day! Some hate it, some can't wait because they have a hot date! Me on the other hand, it's an iffy day lol. Why? Because it happens to be the day my Mother gave birth to me! Exciting because it's my Birthday, but unless I have a date...it's awkward because most everyone else is celebrating with their loved ones. My ex husband never made it too special anyways so I'm not depressed to be alone this year. BUT this year I have awesome friends who are wanting to spend the weekend with me and Valentine's Day to celebrate! Definitely looking forward to it! I'll be 23....yikes!! That age makes me cringe because it sounds so old haha.

I'm Lovin' It!

I have officially completed a full week of Dental Asst School and I absolutely LOVE it!

We had an exam over Math Fundamentals on the 2nd day and I made a 96!

Tomorrow we have a quiz over Microbiology and I plan on making a solid 100 for that lol.

I used to hate note taking and preparing for test but I'm actually enjoying it!

I will say, it's different having to wake up at 6 in the morning and only going to school through Thursday but I'm sure I will get used to it soon!

Besides school I have had an extremely emotional week.

J's separation anxiety has been REALLY bad this week and it's very draining. I have spent alot of time crying, praying, and trying to make him happy.

He has seen a therapist and goes back again this Friday. I'm hoping to get him into a play therapy group and something that's more often than every 2 weeks because it's not getting better.

I never thought my Son would experience such a painful, sad problem like this anxiety.

I hurt for him. I blame myself sometimes for not getting out of the marriage before he could understand what was happening. I also realize though that God has better plans for us and this is only temporary. He won't give me more than I can handle. So for now I have to take a deep breath, thank him for what he's done for us so far, show my son unconditional love through the pain, and have patience for the calming of the storm!

Orientation and Breaking Free!!!

YES!! I AM OFFICIALLY A DENTAL BABY!!!!

So So So happy to finally be starting my Dental career!

The class had 15 people in it and about 6 of them were also single Mother's, although none had been through a divorce, we still can relate!

So blessed to be making new friends and being able to start something that will provide for my son and I in the future!

So have any of you heard of Beth Moore?!?

Well, I went a LONG time just ignoring her name and not wanting to listen to her lessons or read her books.

I just had a friend tell me to do the study book "Breaking Free" and let me tell you, it's AMAZING!!! I meet with her about once every week or two and we discuss 1 or 2 days worth since there is SO much to talk about!

It starts off talking about pride and I thought I was prideless lol. Week 2, Day 2, and I'm broken and realizing how many little things I have in my life keeping my captive.

If you are wanting to get rid of pain, stress, habits, influences, or just have a great devotional I definitely suggest this!

Well, that's all for today. Hope everyone has at least smiled once today! If not, come see me and I will change that! Lol

2012...it's here!!!

Yes, I know....I said I was back on track with posting regularly and then stopped for another 3 months.

It's terrible!!! My New Years resolution is to blog at least once every week this year!!! Keep me accountable people!! Haha.

Here are the things I experienced in 2011 that I'm extremely happy to be saying bye to!

• Being lied to and cheated on by my spouse
• Getting a divorce
• Going through alot of alcohol thinking it would solve all the problems
• Moving away from all my "Military Family"
• Not having a job all year besides Partylite
• Getting a certificate in Medical Billing & Coding
• Going up and down with my weight...more up than down :/
• My Son having anxiety attacks from the divorce

Here are the things I can't wait to experience in 2012!!!

• Been experiencing dating again, feels good, but not so much natural yet
• Staying alcohol free except on occassions in which I won't over indulge lol
• I get to visit my Military Family in February!!!
• I got accepted into Dental Assistant school and start in Jan!!
• I will "hopefully" have my certificate in Medical Billing & Coding within 3 weeks
• Get to experience a Mission Trip to Slovakia, Vienna, and one other place in May!!!!!!!!!
• Plan to stick with my trainer and do 3-4 workouts a week, no strict diet, and lose 15 lbs with a dream goal of 35 lbs
• My Son is set up with a Child Play Therapist and fingers crossed he gets the help needed because I hate seeing him in so much emotional pain.

I'm STOKED for the new year and believe there's many wonderful things coming our way! Hope y'all have alot to look forward to also!!

This is getting bad

I used to post on here at least once a week and now it's only about once a month or every few weeks. My life isn't even too busy, I just can't seem to remember to come on here and post.

I'm going to try to catch all of you up on the happenings of my life the past month.

If you remember I decided to make my blog about my weightloss journey and divorce. Yes, the big D word. Yikes!

I have just realized that alot of people and friends of mine are going through this and if I can at least help one person through this blog I will feel good.

For starters I will talk about month 4 after divorce.

• I haven't cried anymore which is a blessing. It used to be that when a song came up or someone asked where my husband was I would instantly start crying.
• I don't blame the female anymore which is another blessing. I never thought that day would come because I still have anger for the first female he was with 4.5 years ago and we weren't even married yet.
• J is still going through separation anxiety. He is fine until his Daddy goes a few days or weeks without calling and then he will start biting himself and we start from square one all over again. But I will say that he's alot less aggressive so it IS getting better!!! Poor guy :(
• The thought of being alone forever has almost fully left my mind. Alot of people laugh at that but when someone you loved walks out on you and your child you start to have doubts especially since most guys are looking for someone without a kid and someone that hasn't been married.
• I had an ah-ha moment lastnight! Love them! Lol. I was driving and a car passed me with a couple that had their arms around eachother, made me lose my breath for a moment and then I said out loud "Kaycee, God is preparing someone right now for you and your son and it will be more than you can imagine...it's worth the wait!" I love when God speaks to me through myself haha.
• I have had to change the term "My ex husband" into "J's Daddy" so that I always remember to do what's best for our son and so I don't put anger into whatever I'm saying. It actually helps alot and is helping me to learn to be civil with him no matter what he does to me. Be Christ-like.
• I got 2 babysitting jobs!!!! Two families found my info online and contacted me. My first set of income in 3 years besides Partylite!! I pick one child up from school and drop him off at home, and the other is an 8 month old that I just watch a few days a week! I love being around an infant again! Small jobs but at least it's a start and better than nothing! When your in a position where you were left with nothing and have to provide for you and your son, anything helps and I'm proud of myself.

Now on to the weightloss

Booooo!!! Hahaha it's been a struggle! I was on the biggest loser diet but then I went to dfw for a week and gained 4 lbs while there. That's terrible!!!! So I got back and jumped on the veggie/meat diet and lose quickly. I lost 3 lbs so far and have also decided to start the C25K program! Have any of you started that and if so what have your results been?!? I want to lose weight and also end up loving running! Today will be my 2nd day of starting! Once I lose a good amount I will jump back on the Biggest Loser diet to continue eating healthy meals. Now that I know I won't be having any more kids for awhile this is my time to be getting into shape and looking good for my future prince charming ;)

To BC or not to BC...that is the question

Alright, my sister-n-law has been reminding me that I'm slacking on posting!

I have been trying to catch up on my school work, lose weight for the wedding coming up, and enjoying alone time with my son, so I have put blogging on the back burner :/

I needed to post today but honestly am blank on what to say hahaha

Sooo the ONLY thing that popped in my mind that I have been trying to figure out recently is whether or not to get on BC.

I have been off for almost a year. When I got off I had 2 to 3 cycles a month, and then about 5 months later it switched to no cycle for 4 months but has been right on track the past 2!

I'm no longer married, not in a relationship, and don't need any more kids running around until I am married again. Today I had one of the WORST cramps ever, and I have never had bad cramps. My acne has also been really wild since then too.

I used to be on the depo shot until it gave me migraines daily for months, then switched to the pill which I tended to forget every once in awhile.

Do I get on it to help with cramps and acne and a steady cycle, or just not even attempt it?!?

Opinions please, and maybe advice on what kinds you prefer?!

Greek....yuck!

So in one of the recipes for a smoothie it called for regular fat-free Greek yogurt.

The book tells you to ALWAYS try everything at least once.

So I have, and let me tell you...that yogurt is nasty!!!!

It absolutely ruined the smoothie.

Maybe it's because I like sweet things...not tart. And, yogurt has always been a struggle of mine to enjoy unless it's flavored or whipped.

Any suggestions on a healthy yogurt I could substitute it with?

Another thing I tried that I have always hated was mushrooms.

I was to make Portobello Pizza's.

Instead of crust...you use the mushroom.

I will admit, I liked 3 out of the 4 I ate.

1 of them just tasted like pure mushroom...ew!

Have you ever heard of Jicama?

Let me tell you....deeelicious snack!

You slice it up and can eat it raw or cook them.

You can replace it for carrotts and celery or even eat it with them.

So...now that I have shared my interesting meals this week, I guess it's time to share how the process is going huh?

I lost another 2 lbs in a week!!! The book has you walk 20 minutes the first day and then adds 2 more minutes every day after. Once you done it walks you through stretches the first 8-10 days then adds in weights later. Just from the stretches I'm sore!! The meals are easy to stick with because it changes constantly leaving you curious to how things taste! Also, the workouts/stretches change daily too so your not bored with the same thing everyday.

I have 4 weeks until I put on the bridesmaid dress that is being made for me. I hope to have lost at least 7 more pounds by then! Let's see if I can reach that goal!



4 years already?

Well June 30th would have been our 4 year anniversary.

My friends were amazing and lifted my spirits all day long and kept me busy!

People ask "Do you feel like you wasted the past 4 years of your life?"

No, I don't.

I have a beautiful son who means the world to me and I learned so much in the good and bad experiences that came with that marriage.

I have started a new journey and looked at things differently.

Now, instead of it being "well, it would have been 4 years" I'm saying "Wow, it's been 4 years since I got to see these wonderful friends of mine, since I got to focus on me, since I got to really spend time with my family!"

I'm trying to stay positive every step of the way and yes, we have hit a few bumps along the way the past 2 months but were hanging in there!

If y'all pray I'm asking you keep J and I in your prayers for a whole week!

J goes to stay with his Daddy and his family till Monday and at first it was a good thing. I want him to know his daddy and to see him as much as possible seeing were in different states. But unfortunately this is no longer a happy time. His dad has made the decision to no longer follow God, drink, party, curse, see certain females that I won't go into detail about for the sake of their husbands, yeah...you heard me correctly lol. Not a good situation at all.

I'm nervous and disgusted that I have to leave him with him.

Good thing is I will be literally right down the street.

I don't know how J will take to his daddy after 2 months but I'm crossing my fingers things go smoothly.

But one thing I know for sure...his daddy needs my prayers and yours that he gets his life straight soon.

Now on another note: my weight hasn't changed too much because I got sick :/

I did just start on the 30 day jump start book with the biggest loser!!!

Well, kind of haha.

I started the excercises but will start the diet once I return from vacation on Monday.

If you can get this book I suggest it!!!!

I will let you know every week how the process is going!

Frustrated! Help!!

Okay so I have tried to comment on so many of your lovely blogs and it's stressing me out!!!

I write my comment then it says "select account" so I click google account then enter. It goes to the blogger login page and has me login.

It then shows "anonymous wrote: blah blah blah my comment blah blah" then asks me to enter in the security code. So I do...then it goes back to the blogger sign in page. I login AGAIN and it goes back to the comment asking for another security code....

WHY?!?

Lol is anyone else having this happen??

I just want to comment!!!!

Lol.

Winner and weigh-in!

I was supposed to post this lastnight but got busy.

Sorry!!!

The winner of those fun votive holders is...

Melissa from This Crazy Life!

Congrats!!

Send me your address asap so I can get it to you!!

So I weighed in and have lost 4.6 lbs in a week! That is great considering the ONLY thing I have changed....is no stress this week!

I have picked up running everyday! The street I live in goes in a perfect square that's exactly a mile! So I'm going to see how this helps in my journey! I'm excited!

I tend to sleep in till my son wakes up which ends up being till 10...so from now on I'm waking up at 8 and going running! Gonna start my day early and hope it pays off!

When you really want something you can achieve it!



Words with friends failure!!

Be sure to enter into my GIVEAWAY if you haven't already!!

So just a little funny story...

My aunt and sister introduced me to words w/ friends and they were constantly playing when I was down visiting. My phone won't allow that app so I just ignored it but was still a little curious.

I got on my ipod and found it and started playing!!

I was starring at the screen for about 10 minutes (no joke) trying to find the first word to enter.

fyi...I haven't played scrabble in about 8 years lol.

I couldn't figure out anything!!!!

How do people play this? Am I really just that dumb?

How do you put TL, DW, DL, TW in your words?!?!?!?!?

OHHH!!!! Because you DON'T!!!

Hahahaha yes...I thought you had to put a letter before and after those blocks.

Example: Ket"TL"e

Good thing I clicked on help and found out that those blocks are to help you win and not lose!

BITTERSWEET I'M BACK!!!!

I have been away from blogging for almost 2 months.

I won't be posting but probably once a week...maybe a little more often.

As you can tell my blog pictures are different!?

Well, I took 2 months off because I just went through a divorce.

Don't want to get into too much detail just know that this was the best decision because he didn't want responsibility of us anymore.

So J and I have moved to TEXAS :) and I'm trying my best to make it as a single mom in this couples world.

My blog in the past was about my weightloss and surviving deployments.

Now it will be more of the emotions and situations single mom's go through and me getting back on track with my weightloss. Yes, you heard it...this is the FIRST time I have EVER gained weight due to stress. Normally I lose it...but nope not this time. I gained every bit back :/

I will also have my lovely PL giveaway's every once in awhile and if you remember correctly I said I would have one once I started blogging again.

Soooo....here it is!!

All you have to do is be a follower of mine...not private.

And for an extra entry* leave some advice for either -being a single mom -returning to the civilian world -ideas on how to make my blog better!

Separate comment for each entry!

Ikat Votive Holder Pair!

Will randomly choose a winner on Tuesday night the 28th!

hello goodbye

Just wanted to drop in considering my last post was quite awhile ago.

Things have been extremely crazy here and will continue to be that way for the next month.

So I have decided to stay off the blog until things calm down and then I will catch everyone up.

And what better way to come back than to have a giveaway!?

Yep! That's right...so be expecting a big one from me in about a month!

Who knows, I may end up with something to say before then haha.

Just keep me in your prayers!!



Look if ya wanna laugh a little.

So this past weekend 2 friends of mine came over.

Our nights have consisted of jus hanging out in the backyard by the fire and playing games.

So nothing too exciting yet somehow we have the BEST nights ever.

The things that entertain you when you live in the middle of no where hahaha.

So here are a few of our crazy pictures.

Enjoy!

Cahhrrrweeee! (aka Carrie)

The ONLY pic that wasn't blurred out that night haha. My friends Brian and Javi!

Look at my red hair!! Lovin it still!

My pregnant friend Jen....we already decided..she is going to share her baby with me lol.

Without realizing it...I turned this pic into an oreo ad hahaha.

Can you take a guess??

Hahaha this was taken with perfect timing!

I actually just popping her back, nothing more lol.

One of my favorites of the night lol. But I didn't get the memo to not smile haha.

Funny part....she didn't pose for this!

And we were actually talking...didn't mean to make those faces at all but made for a PERFECT picture lol.

 And that's all. Hope at least one made you smile lol.

:)

Alot of...stuff

Hello everyone!!

So I am giving away an item on a friend's blog for her blogaverssary!!!

You can head on over HERE and enter to win the item!!

She is a great blogger!

Now, I have been going through alot the past 3 weeks.

I have yet to just sit down and cry about it all, but I know it's coming really soon.

I will not get personal about what's going on but your prayers are very much welcomed.

God is going to be teaching me alot the next few months and I'm going to have to lean on him and trust him every step of the way.

My friends and family have been amazing through this, and it's bringing us all closer. Weird how bad situations can do that hahaha. But oh well, I will take it!

On top of all of this...next week I will be looking for a J.O.B.....yuppp I said it.

That nasty J word lol. Scares me, but I'm slightly excited about making my own money instead of relying on the husband for the income.